Diary #1: Anxiety and Depression

I have been slacking on my brand lately, for that, I apologize. Things in my life have been crazy and out of control, to the point where I just want to crawl under the sheets and cry. Anxiety and Depression is real and it’s more than just being down like an upside down smiley face! You can appear to be the happiest person ever on the outside, but inside you feel alone, rejected, and stressed as if you were trapped in a dark room with nobody around. Throughout this I’ll explain what’s going on.

I decided to open a new category on my blog post called virtual diary about my life and mood. I feel like it will help me on what I am going through, just by collecting on what I’m feeling like. Express myself in one diary for life. You can read or not, but I will still continue writing for the sake of my health and myself reading it in the future.

Dear Diary, I don’t know how I’m feeling today or any other day. I feel like I’m not myself anymore how I use to be. I was that woman who was inspired every time I look up at small and big businesses. I am like, “yes” my logo will be on there one day or I will collaboration with them. All of sudden this month I be crying for no reason and then when people ask me what’s wrong I make up something, just so they can leave me be and drop it. Then again, if I told them something was wrong they will tell me that makes no sense.

Later on that day, I talked to an old high school friend that suffering depression and all I could say was telling her my experience by thinking positive on the things you are doing at this very moment. After that response, she left me on read so I really don’t know how she took that but best thing to do is leave it alone.

End of the day, I spoke with my mom about what I’m facing and she suggest I should take some medicine for it. I’m kind of hesitated on doing that, but it doesn’t hurt to try. I am going to spend night with her next weekend just to see my brothers, sister, and King (my dog).

The reason why I am sharing you guys my thoughts because someone out there might be going through what I am going through. Please share because nobody is alone.



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  1. July 29, 2017 / 6:03 PM

    Very genuine blog post. I’ve followed you on twitter as a show of appreciation.

    • Sjay
      August 1, 2017 / 7:43 AM

      Thanks for showing appreciation! It means a lot

    • October 24, 2017 / 2:46 PM

      Thanks! As we speaking right I actually put that on my to do list for next month😊

  2. One Day Inspired
    October 25, 2017 / 3:07 PM

    I love your inspiration. Anxiety and Depression are the biggest pains in the ass! I hope you are doing better!

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